Change Agent - at your service!
Music has always been something that just comes through me, not a career path I pursued or subject I studied. Prior to performing my own music on stage, I was a band painter (Cloud Cult). I never had rock star dreams, I am not particularly comfortable singing and playing in front of an audience. In this world of specialists who do the One Thing well, over and over, I am a misfit. I thrive on variety. I love traveling to new places, meeting new friends, eating new foods, inventing new projects and prototypes, listening to music I've never heard before.
These past few weeks, establishing a new home on the west coast of Oregon, I've started up my music practice in preparation for gig season and realized my throat chakra has become rigid and blocked. I've forced myself through hours of playing and singing but it just doesn't work like that for me. I have to be feeling it, really singing from an authentic place.
Recently, while NOT being paid to sing, I've landed a couple of mural painting jobs. Enjoying the feel of paint on a wall, dancing to the music in my heart, I found myself spontaneously singing; and it felt good. With brush and pigment in hand, I noticed a shift in my second chakra energy; creativity putting a new spin on my orange wheel of light….which naturally allowed energy to flow up and through my throat chakra, with EASE!
It seems that my personal path to freedom lies not in segregating my interests and just picking one to focus my attention on, but really embracing my inner Change Agent. In order to create and deliver my music, I must also be regularly using my skills and interests in visual art as well as immersing myself in Nature. As a Free Range Woman, I require a multiplicity of ways to nourish my creativity. My life is most wholesome within a polyculture.
I am a genre-bender, a change agent, an edge walker, a visionary activist. I crave the juicy life! Beautiful landscapes, compassionate and creative people, fresh whole foods, abundant synchronicity, divine appointments.
So, I've decided to let go of trying to make music my career. In fact, I'm letting go of the idea of having a "career". Rather, I am pursuing ways to share my creative gifts with the world and opening to receiving more support outside the mainstream economic paradigm. Keeping the joy and love in my art and music, gardening for the food and beauty. And anytime I can also get some federal reserve notes to use in my gas tank, for car insurance and postage stamps, to share with the local farmers, and pay back some loans… great! But I'm finding more and more ways to engage the gift economy and open to receiving support in alternative ways. The less dependent I feel on dollars, the happier I become. And THAT gets my juices flowing, I sing for the land, creating beauty as an offering to spirit. My art is still a means of survival, but primarily because I shrivel up when I stop creating, not because my roof and bed depend on it. My Soul depends on it.
These past few weeks, establishing a new home on the west coast of Oregon, I've started up my music practice in preparation for gig season and realized my throat chakra has become rigid and blocked. I've forced myself through hours of playing and singing but it just doesn't work like that for me. I have to be feeling it, really singing from an authentic place.
Recently, while NOT being paid to sing, I've landed a couple of mural painting jobs. Enjoying the feel of paint on a wall, dancing to the music in my heart, I found myself spontaneously singing; and it felt good. With brush and pigment in hand, I noticed a shift in my second chakra energy; creativity putting a new spin on my orange wheel of light….which naturally allowed energy to flow up and through my throat chakra, with EASE!
It seems that my personal path to freedom lies not in segregating my interests and just picking one to focus my attention on, but really embracing my inner Change Agent. In order to create and deliver my music, I must also be regularly using my skills and interests in visual art as well as immersing myself in Nature. As a Free Range Woman, I require a multiplicity of ways to nourish my creativity. My life is most wholesome within a polyculture.
I am a genre-bender, a change agent, an edge walker, a visionary activist. I crave the juicy life! Beautiful landscapes, compassionate and creative people, fresh whole foods, abundant synchronicity, divine appointments.
So, I've decided to let go of trying to make music my career. In fact, I'm letting go of the idea of having a "career". Rather, I am pursuing ways to share my creative gifts with the world and opening to receiving more support outside the mainstream economic paradigm. Keeping the joy and love in my art and music, gardening for the food and beauty. And anytime I can also get some federal reserve notes to use in my gas tank, for car insurance and postage stamps, to share with the local farmers, and pay back some loans… great! But I'm finding more and more ways to engage the gift economy and open to receiving support in alternative ways. The less dependent I feel on dollars, the happier I become. And THAT gets my juices flowing, I sing for the land, creating beauty as an offering to spirit. My art is still a means of survival, but primarily because I shrivel up when I stop creating, not because my roof and bed depend on it. My Soul depends on it.
